Aria Jenneth
Caldari Kumiho's Smile
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Posted - 2010.03.15 18:45:00 -
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Oh, now this looks familiar. The approach is different, but the sentiments behind it ... hm.
Ms. Doyle, I hope you will forgive me for writing my response to you here rather than in a private message. You see, I have no interest in "owning" you, though it does seem we should talk.
The void you speak of-- both of atmosphere and spirit-- is familiar to me. It is a place we share, each in our own ways. Perhaps you came to it sooner than I did, an abyss of freedoms to match my own abyss of obscured paths.
What you seem to want is something not strange to my own sect's monkish tradition: a wise leader, a "master," to be guided and disciplined by-- someone enlightened, and capable of sharing that enlightenment. To surrender your own judgment to such a person, to submit and learn, would be a laudable desire if there were any such people to be found among us.
But there are no Masters of my faith, nor, I believe, of any faith or philosophy, among the capsuleers.
We capsuleers are a people in flux. Our place in the scheme of things is unclear, our power extreme. Exactly what we should be and how we should become that is a troublesome question made all the more difficult by the fact that those speculating about such things are as vulnerable to the changes pressing in on us as anyone else.
You are looking for wisdom a guiding light. But I fear, Ms. Doyle, that there is none to be found, because there is at this time not a single capsuleer in all the cluster who truly understands what we should be. Many think they do, but we are a prideful and shortsighted lot, immature as children. A wise capsuleer is as rare as a wise toddler; we can, at most, aspire to wisdom.
Consequently, you will not be able to find for yourself a stable, dependable guiding light. At best, you will find someone who is trying to be one; at times, your "owner" or mentor will be more lost than you are, and it is you who will have to find the path and guide your "guiding light" along it.
What you need is a friend and companion, a counterpart, someone whose judgment you can trust most of the time, and whom your own insights can aid. There is no one now among us that you can trust your whole judgment to; there may one day be, but there is not now.
If you wish to talk, please feel free to contact me. Best wishes, and welcome back.
-Aria Jenneth
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